Journal Entry #8 : This Posts Contains a Lot of Feels (but is somewhat still bike related)
I haven’t written as much as I wanted here in the last few weeks. I could blame it on a lot of things; like a lack of time, working too much (my real job is editor of an awesome and cool mommy blog), my stupid ex-broken wrist hurting a lot, and not having a proper bike for a while.
These are kinda’ all good reasons. However, reasons like that never really stopped me from accomplishing anything, especially things I love doing. I love writing, biking, sharing experiences, and discussing bike culture. This blog embodies it all.
I told you, in my first Journal Entry, that I used to not like biking for while. Even if it’s not the case nowadays, I still get that feeling from time to time. Like I explained before, biking is something I used to do with my father and my brother. I don’t bike with my father anymore, because he is gone forever. Christmas time, being what it is, brings back a lot of memory and I get all caught up in them. It’s very bittersweet and it takes up a lot of my energy.
In times like this, my anxiety takes over and I stop sleeping. It gets really hard to focus on things, even things I love, like Chat de Ruelle. I also get super moody and sad, and consequently, I’m pretty sure, somewhat annoying or not as easy to live/deal with. So this is where it gets really sappy : thank you Eric for being very supportive and nice even if I was a pain in the butt. You’ve now seen me at my worst. You pass.
However, I’m not one to indulge in sadness and I’m trying to shake it off (damn you Taylor Swift for ruining that literary moment). I’m not saying feelings are bad, but sometimes you have to get over yourself, and this Journal Entry is a step towards that.
Also, I just got all the missing pieces for my winter bike, which comes in at a perfect timing. ‘Cause nothing helps me clear my head more than going for a ride. Actually running does, but running hurts and I just want to go for rides on my awesome winter bike with my even more awesome boyfriend and his matching bike. Yes. Matching bikes. Brother and Sister sleds. We’ll have pictures of that really soon.
So yeah, this is an oath (or early New Year’s Resolution, but oaths are way cooler) to put a little time everyday in this great project that is Chat de Ruelle and to keep pushing it forward.